I really can’t picture anyone having a crush on me. I can’t picture someone thinking about me before they fall asleep, or telling their friends about me. I can’t picture anyone getting butterflies because I said hi to them, or even just smiled at them. I can’t picture someone smiling at the computer screen or their cell phones when we’re talking. I mean like; why would they even do that? I’m just me. Nothing extraordinary, or special.
I think what makes it impossible to find another guy to love is that you start to believe that there is no other guy that would compare. If you rethink things, you start to see that the guy that you believed to be perfect is all that great. That he is actually just like any other person. What makes them so special if the memories you had together, which is obviously something you won’t ever be able to replace. But once you get into your mind that there is someone else out there who you can share perfect memories with, it gets easier. And you’ll unexpectedly find another guy who you think is perfect, and that’s life.